im sitting upright, its hot, los angeles is gray and hazy and what, do i really have to leave the house today? August in los angeles sucks and its hot and the air is super deserty that i want so badly to go to the movies but dont feel quite up to it yet, oh well.

SO now there are 2 more treatments only, i cannot believe how the time speeds by so quickly. I was imagining that this summer would be really long and endless but its just going by fast like ive got to go back to school soon....i am so glad and so thankful that it has not been extremely difficult, this cycle i was able eat quite a bit and not feel sick much at all, and my lethargy i think i can attribute 80% to the weather.

Im just not looking forward to the next set of uncertainites. IM not very elequent right now, but just knowing that i have to meet with new doctors when i start radiation and negotiate a whold other set of actions that will feel as though i am doing what i need to do, thats daunting. But i m not going to think about that now.

We are in the process of moving all this email blogs random flotsam we have in the internet onto one server, emails may get bounced back but dont worry we are still here. Im hoping with something that i can completely personalize and customise i can write more, and maybe more than just about medical stuff.

love jen